tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-67240871642064864852024-02-19T11:15:36.272+08:00Silent Chaos Seeking silence in this chaotic world 在这混乱的世界里寻找一片沉静...Silent Chaoshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04117901423529336012noreply@blogger.comBlogger710125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6724087164206486485.post-49945291281824772332016-05-28T10:30:00.001+08:002016-05-28T10:30:07.340+08:00经营不善<p dir="ltr">Well...Maybe he thinks that I am still at oversea so no invitation for me?<br>
继续自己安慰自己吧,唉……没有经营,哪来收获……<br>
We was the best of friends for 5 years up till I leapt a year and then pufff... Went different ways and yup pretty much summed up my friendship with many of them...</p>
Silent Chaoshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04117901423529336012noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6724087164206486485.post-40486241796411822182015-12-01T18:43:00.001+08:002015-12-01T18:43:10.869+08:00迷茫?懈怠?<p dir="ltr">为什么不像当初那么发心了呢?<br>
为什么觉得去不去好像也没什么差别呢?<br>
为什么找不回当初的那一份法喜呢?<br>
为什么总觉得融合不进呢?<br></p>
<p dir="ltr">有种离得越来越远的感觉</p>
Silent Chaoshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04117901423529336012noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6724087164206486485.post-41165035793545847762015-11-21T23:33:00.001+08:002015-11-21T23:33:40.591+08:00I need to care less about things not really related to me<p dir="ltr">Like seriously<br>
I need to stop listening to some rumor about the people I know and care.<br>
It had nothing to do with me and any consequences is not my problem</p>
<p dir="ltr">I need to stop worrying about how others live their life and stop get drag into the eye of the hurricane... </p>
Silent Chaoshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04117901423529336012noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6724087164206486485.post-78478725100038865962015-10-16T19:10:00.001+08:002015-10-16T19:10:39.887+08:00Me efficientI can be efficient<br />
Very efficient<br />
<br />
The only problem is<br />
My cooling off period is way too long<br />
<br />
I need to slack off for a long time before becoming efficient again...Silent Chaoshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04117901423529336012noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6724087164206486485.post-9096949164819050232015-10-16T18:31:00.002+08:002015-10-16T18:31:45.349+08:00有自信是好事,对吧?星期日的运动会<br />
规划3个游戏<br />
其中两个自己没看过,没玩过<br />
一个是从学妹那里听来的,游戏规则是她通过微信教会我的<br />
另外一个是从wikipedia学来的<br />
<br />
然后就打算这样上场了<br />
<br />
有自信是好事,对吧?<br />
<br />
Praying hard that it will not explode in front of my face... Silent Chaoshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04117901423529336012noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6724087164206486485.post-12266135000528512242015-09-26T18:09:00.001+08:002015-09-26T18:09:00.399+08:00Hmmm...<p dir="ltr">I had never been particularly close to anyone. I like to keep some distance I don't know why.<br>
It is a blessing sometimes because I won't get hurt easily<br>
But sometimes it sucks because sometimes you just need the closeness </p>
Silent Chaoshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04117901423529336012noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6724087164206486485.post-29634971347824114232015-08-30T17:20:00.002+08:002015-08-30T17:20:13.925+08:00I hopeI hope one day I can proudly tell my friends from all over the world how beautiful Malaysia is.<br />
With the diverse culture,race,religion,food and all the beautiful people living there.<br />
I hope the day will come soon...Not far in the future...Silent Chaoshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04117901423529336012noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6724087164206486485.post-71461776451916026342015-08-30T17:13:00.001+08:002015-08-30T17:13:44.566+08:006 months6
“astonishing-thrilling-exhilarating-confusing-happening-weird-happy-sad-miserable-fun-fulfilling-zen-exciting-everything
is so new-everything is so boring-so much more to
learn-entertaining-blissful” months had GONE<br />
Another 6 more months to go<br />
May the craziness goes on!!!<br />
<br />
<br />
<img alt="" class="fbPhotoImage img" height="320" id="fbPhotoImage" src="https://scontent-sjc2-1.xx.fbcdn.net/hphotos-xpt1/v/t1.0-9/p720x720/11889622_10207933066867545_10296018510236122_n.jpg?oh=d5173e54e591324ae96b4eede4cd8103&oe=566407D4" width="320" />Silent Chaoshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04117901423529336012noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6724087164206486485.post-87936607043092280962015-08-23T21:10:00.002+08:002015-08-23T21:10:17.585+08:00初发心初<br />
发<br />
心<br />
<br />
以前做慈青真的很快乐<br />
虽然很克难,很多障碍<br />
但总是法喜满满<br />
<br />
来到这里<br />
很克难,很多障碍<br />
却烦恼很多<br />
民情的关系吧<br />
总觉得无法发挥<br />
每件事情都太多束缚了<br />
<br />
以前会觉得别人不精进<br />
现在倒回来看<br />
我觉得现在的自己更加不精进<br />
总是想一大堆理由<br />
过去了也有点心不甘,情不愿的<br />
回到家,人累,心也累<br />
虽然说付出不一定要有所得,但唉...<br />
<br />
好怀念在马来西亚当慈青的感觉<br />
好怀念当初的初发心<br />
好怀念大家虽然很克难但一起拼的感觉<br />
好怀念每一次活动后的法喜满满<br />
好怀念... Silent Chaoshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04117901423529336012noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6724087164206486485.post-1168070184853062212015-08-23T20:58:00.002+08:002015-08-23T20:58:50.943+08:00停滞不前今天薪传<br />
老干部传承新干部<br />
把清流继续留在大专<br />
<br />
<br />
看到大家的精进<br />
再看回自己<br />
停滞不前<br />
<br />
唉<br />
怎么觉得一直找不回初发心了呢?<br />
<br />Silent Chaoshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04117901423529336012noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6724087164206486485.post-90270378382920697842015-06-29T00:24:00.001+08:002015-06-29T00:24:24.018+08:00跟风?<p dir="ltr">我倒是觉得自己最跟不上潮流了。<br>
我把profile picture 换了并不代表我对同性结婚表示同意,hell,我对结婚这档事很不屑,不管是异性的,还是同性的。两个人喜欢彼此还要有一张纸来证明太可笑了吧!<br>
我换上profile picture 只是替一直以来被误解谩骂歧视的LBGT朋友开心而已啊,很简单很单纯啊。<br>
唉,想不到自己也会被误解了。<br>
不要把正信不正信的理由塞给我吧,我真的消化不来啊</p>
Silent Chaoshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04117901423529336012noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6724087164206486485.post-20662601173602054102015-06-28T11:18:00.001+08:002015-06-28T11:18:43.184+08:00实习 1/3<p dir="ltr">不知不觉,实习了4个月,过了1/3。<br>
</p>
Silent Chaoshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04117901423529336012noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6724087164206486485.post-30820433057521399632015-04-21T10:29:00.001+08:002015-04-21T10:29:13.890+08:00我的名字<p dir="ltr">有时候觉得自己很枉对我的名字<br>
很冲,很冲动,说话前没想后果<br>
伤害自己就算了<br>
最惨的是还会拖累身边的人</p>
Silent Chaoshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04117901423529336012noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6724087164206486485.post-35681905714845978032015-03-31T23:35:00.001+08:002015-03-31T23:35:19.574+08:00规律中的不规律<p dir="ltr">最近实习了,生活好似规律许多<br>
每晚11点多睡觉,早上7点起身<br>
早上8点上班,下午5点下班<br></p>
<p dir="ltr">好像很健康<br>
但最近总觉得睡的质量好差<br>
多梦,而且都是莫名其妙的梦<br>
最惨的是睡得浅<br>
一夜就醒了2到3次</p>
<p dir="ltr">唉</p>
Silent Chaoshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04117901423529336012noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6724087164206486485.post-54313865699810439592015-03-23T23:27:00.001+08:002015-03-25T21:31:46.068+08:00曙光实习记 1<div dir="ltr">
在这个“男士止步”的部门呆了三个星期,老实说还是不错的。<br />
一开始也没报多大的期待,毕竟在民风保守的这里,一个男生应该也做不了太多的事情,甚至已经抱着发一个月呆的打算了。<br />
但情况也没想象中不好啦!至少我能进入手术室看人流,进检查室看老师操作阴道镜,虽然妇检是没机会做…<br />
自己是比较喜欢实做的人,在课堂上学理论是必要的,但总觉得只有临床做了,才算真正学到了。跟在老师旁边看老师如何问诊,开方,看报告,其实也学到很多的。<br />
可是也无法否认,这里是整间医院遇到最多生死的一科了。很多时候真的很无奈,很伤感,但真的又做不了什么。很多时候都在说服自己不要judge,但我想我还是常常会不由自主地批判…<br />
Anyway,这三个星期也遇到了各种奇葩的,有趣的,糊涂的,计较的,友善的,有爱的,无奈的,伤心的,晴天霹雳的各种女性吧…<br />
还有1个多星期,还是要多用心啊 </div>
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Silent Chaoshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04117901423529336012noreply@blogger.com0Pudong, Pudong31.221518 121.54438tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6724087164206486485.post-36827301374440496572015-03-12T16:57:00.001+08:002015-03-12T16:58:00.030+08:00谣言止于智者<p dir="ltr">谣言止于智者<br>
只可惜现今社会智者不多<br>
多的是人云亦云,随风起舞的疯子<br>
听说听说,反正是听说,说错了也不必负责任<br>
口不择言,反正说错了也不管己事<br>
人家大骂,你不骂,反而还要被骂</p>
<p dir="ltr">末法时代啊<br>
不求证,不亲眼亲身经历,就滔滔不绝地说个乱七八糟的<br>
悲哀…</p>
Silent Chaoshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04117901423529336012noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6724087164206486485.post-52811140557127321092015-03-03T18:25:00.001+08:002015-03-03T18:26:54.842+08:00实习咯!<p dir="ltr">今天是实习第二天<br>
还蛮累的,尤其要在这种天气那么早爬起床…<br>
</p>
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I had to stay awake against my will...<br>
I had to be alert no matter how sleepy am I...</p>
<p dir="ltr">Another hour to go...<br>
Hope to get some sleep during the flight...</p>
Silent Chaoshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04117901423529336012noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6724087164206486485.post-61474875923231125752015-02-26T01:43:00.001+08:002015-02-26T01:43:13.648+08:00蓝蓝的天<p dir="ltr">再过两天又要回到灰灰的天了<br>
我会很想念家里的蓝天,好空气<br>
晴空万里啊<br>
要隔10个月后才能相见了<br>
</p>
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时间过的真是快啊,寒假就快放完了<br>
要告别在家的安逸生活<br>
重返繁忙的大都市了<br>
好舍不得…</p>
Silent Chaoshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04117901423529336012noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6724087164206486485.post-20339080158837112672015-02-16T23:40:00.001+08:002015-02-16T23:40:33.752+08:00<p dir="ltr">今天和姑姑出去找朋友。在姑姑友人家附近,一位老爷目无表情坐着,呆呆地望着远方。<br>
姑姑说老爷爷的儿子每个月擅自把他的福利金取出买酒喝。就这样老爷爷欠了很多个月的房租,没办法付房租,屋主已经好几次要赶人了。没有其他地方可去的老爷爷只要厚着脸皮,任由屋主谩骂,赖着不走。姑姑说长寿不一定是好事,尤其是老爷爷这样的处境… 听着听着,好心酸。<br><br></p>
Silent Chaoshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04117901423529336012noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6724087164206486485.post-71033694554613956092015-02-04T21:16:00.003+08:002015-02-04T21:16:47.347+08:00负担有些人就是理所当然的以为全世界的人都要照顾他<br />
很自以为是的做大家的负担<br />
我知道你从小身体的毛病多,但这不是借口啊!<br />
世界上比你不幸的人还有很多很多<br />
仗着自己被大家宠坏就整天耍性子<br />
是,我是有责任照顾你<br />
但照顾和养是两回事<br />
我会照顾你,就像照顾家人一样<br />
但我没有义务养你,还要受你的气... Silent Chaoshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04117901423529336012noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6724087164206486485.post-32813323014739995412015-02-04T17:11:00.004+08:002015-02-04T17:11:54.180+08:00分别心其实说到底,自己也有分别心。<br />
明明朝着相同的方向,只是走的路不太一样,没有对与错,只有习不习惯而已。<br />
觉得自己待久了,怎样都有点法水了,但发现自己要修的,还有很多。<br />
<br />
所以可能我真的了解,可能也不太了解<br />
但<br />
心宽念纯吧<br />
不伤害别人,自己的菱角磨一磨也是好的。 Silent Chaoshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04117901423529336012noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6724087164206486485.post-46358796650123139962015-01-11T00:10:00.001+08:002015-01-11T00:10:35.719+08:00分秒不空过 步步踏实过今天早上都在迷路中度过,要去的敬老院没去成,要回去的地铁站也要绕一个大湾才找得到,挺沮丧的。本来想乘回国渡寒假前到敬老院送爱,结果因缘不具足,但
没关系下学期一定还有机会的!中午想说到浦东联络处交大藏经给淑惠妈,看到教联会的共修少了音控就毛遂自荐了。就这样在联络处待了整个下午,客串了音控,
摄影和制作大藏经。本来觉得蛮郁闷的,但想想“自造福田,才能自得福缘”啊,既然一个因缘不具足,就努力寻找另外一亩福田,找一个可以付出的事情啊!要做
好事也不容易,很多时候也要自己努力创造寻找福田。与其埋怨没事可做,不如找事来做(当然是要有意义的事啦),这样才“分秒不空过 步步踏实过”啊Silent Chaoshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04117901423529336012noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6724087164206486485.post-63325430119738710472015-01-04T10:41:00.003+08:002015-01-04T10:41:44.114+08:00Year End Blessing 第一次在上海的岁末祝福,幸福满满了!这一次和一班慈青和师姑当小朋友的保姆。当小朋友的爸爸妈妈在楼上参与岁末祝福,我们就负责陪伴小朋友们看看影带,折折纸,玩游戏和写心愿卡片。这两天和那么多小菩萨结一份份好缘也是件快乐的事。<br /> 当然这一次因缘最殊胜的就是能从精舍师父手上拿到今年的福慧红包。还有这一次的大藏经也好感人,有几次都差一点流泪的,确实啊,天底下苦难多,但好人也多,肯帮助苦难的人,肯拔苦予乐的人也多,才会有那么多的感动!最深刻的还是师公上人的那一句:来不及!<br /> 祈愿新的一年里推动人心净化,社会祥和的脚步要继续勇猛精进,天下的灾难才会却步。Silent Chaoshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04117901423529336012noreply@blogger.com0