“老鸟”实习生

自从实验室来了几位“菜鸟”实习生后，早来几个星期的我晋升成了“老鸟”实习生。
本来一切教导实习生的工作是由那些经验老到的“真正”工作人员来教导的，但不知为何这些工作即然落到了我的手中，真是莫名其妙。。。
更令我吐血的是，那些大姐姐们根本就对这些实验一窍不通，连最基本的运作方式也一知半解。
天啊。。。他们可是未来的实验室的工作人员啊。。。这么一点也靠不住呀。。。
我教了第二步，他们就忘了第一步；我教了第一遍，一转过身，他们又把一切忘光光了。。。
呜呜呜。。。
后来察明了原因后，我才发现原来他们有些根本不是理科生。他们还说他们学院的入学方式太简单了：在SPM考获3个Credit即可。。。
天啊。。。难怪素质这么见不得人了。。。

The Debate in the Lab

It starts from a meeting and end in a debate...
It starts from a small topic and almost end up in a fight...
Everyone was furious with each other and try to show their sharp fangs...
It was a small topic which can be easily solved if everyone are willing to step behind a little...
However no one did that...
Although no harsh words were uttered but even a senseless person can feel the tense...
The heat in the air and the angry expression suddenly turns the room into a war zone...
Everyone seems friendly during work...
But when someone mess up with their comfort zone...
There are no such thing as friend...
Luckily I am not involved...
But watching the debate make me feel so uncomfortable...
I wonder how can they act so friendly when in their heart, they hate each other so much...
Haiz...
That is the world of adult...
A world that I hope I will never involve in...
I rather be a kid forever...

鸟，鱼，我

如果我是只小鸟，
我希望能展翅高飞，
飞越云端，冲上云霄，
看看这世界有多辽阔。

如果我是只小鱼，
我希望能不停往上游，
穿越小溪，游向大海，
看看这世界有多宽阔。

但我是我，
既不能像小鸟般展翅高飞，
也无法像小鱼般不停往上游，
所以我只好一步一步慢慢走，
细细体会这瞭望无际的世界，
寻找属于我的天地。

潘裕文-夏雨诗EP

潘裕文是一位非常不错的歌手。声音干净清澈，咬字也比一般时下流行歌手来的清楚，所以给人一种非常舒服的感觉。在这雨季听他的歌，真的有一种温暖的感觉。。。
他新推出的EP-夏雨诗是我近期非常喜欢的一张专辑。整张专辑没有太花俏的编曲，更能凸显出潘裕文干净的歌声。最爱专辑中的夏雨诗，想情诗一样优美的歌词，简单但绝不单调的曲，在加上潘裕文那把能融化人心的声音，太赞了。此外，狮子心也是非常不错，尤其是歌词中勉励大家要勇敢追逐自己梦想的那段，很适合当做毕业歌。

关于雨季的几件事

一，一套衣服可以穿一整天，不需要替换(反正也不会臭）
二，家里会变成买衣场（衣服不能干嘛，挂满屋咯。。。）
三，大家都变成了宅男，干物女（整天呆在家里，出不去）
四，家里水费会大大减少（因为大家都少冲凉，少洗衣，也不需要浇花）
五，大家会胖几公斤（因为除了吃，就是睡觉）
六，家里的食物会很快吃完（天冷当然要多吃了。。。）

Pokemon Pearl

Playing Pokemon Pearl now...
Hahahahaha...Spend every bit of my time after work to finish the game...
Very interesting and I love it very much...
Have been hoping to play it for more than 2 years and now I finally have the chance to play it...
Super duper happy...
Very cool games with many new features...
I highly recommend it to all Pokemon lovers...
Below is my team:

小感动

在医院当实验室实习生虽然也会无聊，但也有许多令我小小感动的情节。
在Clinical Lab 为人验孕时就是其一。每当验孕棒出示阳性反应时，心里就会莫名的感动，兴奋起来。
当我把成绩告诉那位妇女时，一直微笑着（非常辛苦才能压抑住兴奋的神情）。看到我超high的表情，她也知道了好消息，自然也高兴。
目送着他与丈夫离开时，还是非常高兴，毕竟我见证了一个新生命的第一步。虽然我可能永远也不知道那个新生命会怎样走下去，但我一定会默默祝福他能快高长大，健健康康，一生平安。。。

Unidentified Microorganism AGAIN

Found another unidentified microorganism AGAIN...
This time in HVS(High Vaginal Swab)...
They look like worm but they should not be worm...
Unless they are the smallest worm in the world...
Cos I need to look them under oil immersion...
It is gram positive and have no reaction on oxidase...
U may wonder why I also spot these unusual microorganism...
I found it interesting too...
Because according to my co-workers...
They also havent saw it before...
So the solution is subculture again...
Then send it to KB or KL...
Habis cerita...

跳樓

她跳下去后，又覺得後悔了。。。
她一向很愛惜自己的容貌，這樣一摔。。。
頭破血流，腦漿溢出，髮型亂掉不說。。。
身體扭曲才令她更難受。。。
但既然決定了，也跳下去了，想要回頭已經不可能了。。。
這時，她突然想起了他。。。
他這短短的一生中最愛的男人。。。
想起了他們共同度過的美好時光。。。
他們也曾經甜蜜過，快樂過。。。
她想起他燦爛的笑容，幽默的性格，溫柔的眼神。。。
還有他們每天傍晚6.32分約在他公寓下見面的情況。。。
他樣樣都好。。。
就可惜他早已結婚了。。。
他們相逢恨晚，所以一切都要暗地裡進行。。。
他們要選擇在沒人認識的地方約會。。。
看電影時也提心吊膽，害怕認識的人就坐在旁邊。。。
喝杯咖啡也要跑到離家10公裡外的咖啡廳。。。
雖然STARBUCKS就在他們公寓附近。。。
其實她也不要求什麽。。。
她知道他很愛他的孩子，所以才不愿離開他的妻子。。。
她心甘情愿默默愛著他，躲在他背後，做他的出軌對象。。。
一切都很順利，他開心，她也就滿意了。。。
但最近他變了。。。
約會一次又一次的取消。。。
電話一天比一天少。。。
簡訊也一則比一則短。。。
後來她才知道他妻子有懷孕了。。。
是個男孩。。。
他一直想要個能傳承他香火的孩子。。。
如今他如愿了，所以就收心了。。。
他決定離開她，做個盡責的丈夫，父親。。。
她心碎了，所以她就要他也嘗嘗這滋味。。。
她從小就是如此剛烈的。。。
自己要的東西，別人無論如何是不能搶走的，就算那東西一開始不是她的。。。
她先前已經準備了幾封遺書。。。
一封給她父母，一封給她念大學老弟，一封給她家的小喵。。。
她沒給他留下遺書。。。
她只是要他內疚一輩子，後悔過著下半輩子。。。
就快到達地面了，一切就快結束了。。。
她看見了他驚訝，恐慌的表情。。。
她笑了。。。
然後極快的撞上地面，死了。。。
她手上的表停在傍晚6.32分。。。

他和她

她走了。。。
這次她真的走了。。。
再多的承諾也拉不住她了。。。
她不想再這樣傻下去了。。。
她受够了他的優柔寡斷。。。
受够了他一次又一次的謊言。。。
她已經疲憊了，所以選擇了離開。。。
徹底離開他的世界。。。

他哭了。。。
真的痛痛快快的哭了一場。。。
他知道自己的柔弱遲早會讓他失去她。。。
但他想不到這一天來得如此快。。。
他甚至還來不及說再見，她就這樣走了。。。
奇怪的是哭后他又覺得平靜了。。。
心裡不但不痛，反而還有些痛快。。。
也許她的離開是一種解脫吧？？？

兩年後，他們在繁忙的街道遇見了。。。
他說：“你好。。。"
她沉默不語。。。
他說： “最近過得如何？？？”
她還是不說話。。。
他說：“你一點也沒變。。。”
她呆呆的望著他。。。
他也不說話了，轉過頭就走。。。

“先生，不買鏡子嗎？？？”

冷笑話（一）

今天從電臺聽了一個冷笑話：

Q:有那一個字一輩子都會念錯的？？

A:“錯”字。。。

聽完后，我無語。。。

Unidentified Microorganism

While checking out the culture I did yesterday...
Found out an unidentified microorganism...
Culture it from a patient blood C&S...
It had a spherical plus rod shape...
It is a gram positive, have +ve reaction with hydrogen peroxide and oxidase...
It only grow on blood agar...
Anyone know what is it???
Subculture it today just to make sure I did not make any mistake...
Hope will know the result tomorrow after the biochem test...

偷懶

朋友都說我愛偷懶。。。
我常常會反駁說忙裡偷閒嘛。。。
累了就應該先放慢腳步，稍微休息一下。。。
充充電后不是能走更長遠的路嘛。。。
所以以後看到我合上眼睛小睡的時候。。。
請勿打擾。。。
我是爲了能堅持的更久而補充體力罷了。。。
絕對不是因為我懶惰。。。

簡單生活

生活簡簡單單多好啊。。。
其實很多時候是我們把生活搞的複雜，亂七八糟。。。
爲了一些小事情而煩惱。。。
多年後，回頭看會發現自己其實很傻，很執著。。。
所以朋友啊。。。
煩惱很多時候是自找的。。。
很多時候只要我們放得下，稍微往後退。。。
一切都能海闊天空的。。。
所以朋友啊。。。
後退不是懦弱，而是寬宏大量的表現。。。
吃一點虧，換來簡單的生活，不好嗎？？？

Making Agar-Agar

Today I will teach u all how to make agar-agar...
First,we mix 20g of the agar powder into 500ml of distilled water...
Next,mix it well...
Then,place our mixture into an autoclave machine...
Left it in 121°C for about an hour...
Then we pour the mixture into small plates called Petri dish...
Oh...Before that we must add in a special ingredient called blood...
Finally,left in to cool for half an hour...
And "qiang qiang qiang", U can now enjoy ur chocolate agar...

(p/s:I will not be responsible in anything that happen after u take ur agar,Try at ur own risk).....

Connection

Why the connection at home so slow...
I wanna see my CSI:NY...
I have been waiting for 1 week...
Please be faster...
T.T

生氣是短暫的發瘋

前幾天被一位仁兄無緣無故的駡了一頓。。。
明明已經把路讓給了他，他還在罵，還在念。。。
生氣是短暫的發瘋啊。。。
算了。。。
何必跟他一般見識。。。
他要發瘋就讓他發瘋算了。。。
他一直罵，我才不睬他嘞。。。
結果那位仁兄一直罵到後面的車“honk”才停住。。。
無聊。。。
看來真的是要接受治療了。。。

ACER大集會

這次營隊文宣組有了一個很大的意外。。。

一向來都被大家踩到抬不起頭的ACER電腦既然出現了7架。。。

這次所有的工作都是靠ACER這種“B咖”完成了。。。

哇。。。原來大家一直都口不對心（尤其是我）。。。

哈哈哈哈。。。

其實ACER也挺不錯的，只是我們對他的成見太深了。。。（有點對不起本人電腦的感覺）。。。

所以我決定從此要對他好一點。。。

少敲他。。。少打他。。。少咒他。。。

希望他能原諒我。。。哈哈哈。。。

此文附上我們文宣組7臺ACER筆記本電腦的英姿。。。

There Will Be Blood...

Start my industrial training on 6/10/2008 at Hospital Tanah Merah...
A small hospital in my hometown...
And the lab is really small...
All the biochem department share a small space together...
Very packed but they say very "mesra"..Swt...
This week everything I learn is about blood...
Pure blood...
Hot boiling blood...
No violence is involved...
No stabbing is involved...
But I am pretty sure a lot of tears is involved...
Taking blood can be really painful sometimes...Especially when the nurses are so fierce...
A good experience and my supervisor is a good woman...
Very patient and carefree...
So I learn some basic stuff this week...
Nothing much:FBC,G6PD,FBP...
Intresting but sometimes can be boring too...
It will always be busy in the morning...
But in the evening...
Haiz...Boring....
Hope that the next department will be more bz...
I rather be bz than be boring...

營隊回顧...

很多人問我為何這次不寫營隊回顧。。。因為我上次的幹訓營寫了好多。。。

這么說呢？？？

感覺很不同吧。。。

干訊營是去接受別人的服務，而這次是去付出，成就另外300++人的慧根。。。

這種feel是筆墨難以形容的。。。就算是李白在世也無法形容那種滿足感。。。就算莎士比亞復活也無法寫出那種法喜滿滿的心情。。。

哈哈。。。

所以付上多些照片吧。。。因為"A Picture Worths a Thousands Words"嘛。。。

大家。。。

一起成長吧。。。

慈濟路上有大家的陪伴永遠不孤獨。。。

人生无常

人生实在是太无常了...
也太脆弱了...
所以做什么事情都一定要把握当下...
才不会有遗憾...
小叔,您好走...
我会永远怀念您的...

慈青生活营

慈青生活营的到来进入倒数5天...

好期待哦...

目前名卡已经做的7788了...

小册子也交给了志工室过目...

相信不久就能通过了...

真的是好期待30/9的到来...

希望一切都能顺顺

I am BACK...

After stopping for a months,I AM BACK!!!
Hello,blog...
Long time no see...
Hope will be posting something new everyday...

CSI:NY

22 days more before my favourite drama series is back on TV...

CSI:NY 5th Season premiered on 24/9/2008 with the episode titled "Veritas"...

Cant wait for that day...

Especially after the cliffhanger on last season finale...

Wonder what will happened to Mac...

Here is the link to the CSI:NY Season 5 Promo:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nfYrYyJLPfs

End of Year 2 Semester 1 (What I feel about my life outside Uni)

After 6 sems, I really thinks that I had blend and adapt myself quite well in KL...
Far away from Kelantan...
Life is different here but well life must go on anyhow...
Adapting may takes some times but I am proud that I can still survive and hold on to myself in this busy and fast paced city...
I am still who I am (I think so)...
The biggest and most dramatic turning point in my life this sem is becoming the 拉曼慈青联络人...
Everything changes a lot...
In the previous sem, all I need to do is take part in the activities and maybe hold some small posts...
But after becoming联络人, I really feel that it is really something different...
Not as a burden but in the form of responsibility...
I think I grew a lot...
Learn more on how to handle different situation and how to communicate with different peoples...
Hahaha....I like this kind of feeling...
Making the sense of belongings to Tzu Ching grew stronger and make myself a better person...
Making more and more friends too...
Some from Tzu Ching and some from Uni...
Although we are not very close...
But at least I know who they are and can communicate with them...
Not just saying 'Hi" and "Bye"...
But something more personal...
Still hang out with the old gang...
We become closer really after a few incidents...
Kind of getting the feeling I had with my friends during secondary school...
Housemates...
Getting better I think...
But sometimes it is still tough...
I dont know why...
Maybe we are not in the same channel...
Sometimes it is just so hard to tolerate especially when it comes to the connection problem...
Hope to find a solution...
Overall, it is quite a sems...
Full of happiness, suffering, enjoys and no tears...
I think this is a part of the adapting process...

End of Year 2 Semester 1 (What I feel about my Uni life)

It is the end of my 6th semester in UTAR (3 sems during foundation and 3 sems in degree)...
Time ran so quickly, when I finally find my pace, the semester ends...
A better sem compared to my nightmare Year 1 Semester 2...
The lectures are better, kinder, more professional and I think I am more attracted to the courses...
However, there are some exception. The Endo lecture to be particular is nearly as sucks as my Anatomy and Physiology lecture last sems...
Not so bad actually but honestly...
Her notes is a big mess,very unorganized...
And another thing that I cant stand is she kept making the 'Shhh..." sound even when we are not making any noisy...
Anyway, at least she is very familiar with the course she is teaching and she wont laugh at us when we failed our test...
The moral En. Baik Hati is quite a decent lecturer...
He will be better if he stop telling us how "baik hati" is him during the class.Hahahaha...
The micro lecturer is also a very "pro" lecturer...
She knows her topic well but if she provide us with fresh new notes, it is better (Currently, we photostat the notes from our senior and the quality is not so good)...
The nutrition lecturer is a good lady...
But we just cant concentrate during her lecture...
But we wont blame her, the subject itself is really not as appealing as the name implies...
Management lecturer is another typical "read from the slide" lecturer...
The tutor is better but management is just too boring and even he cant bring too much enjoyment to the class...
The best lecturer I think for this sem is our clinical lecturer...
She really improved very much compared to her performance in Year 1 Sem 1...
Really enjoy the class because it is interesting...
It is more fun when we get to know more new things and the way she connect to some of the particular topics to what we saw in TV...
So...
An average semester that I enjoy and suffer in the same time (Enjoy 60% and Suffer 40%, most of the suffering came from all the 4 assignments we need to complete)...
Hope to score better this sem...
Go, me...
Score well in the final and make everyone happy and proud...
Aza aza fighting and Gampate to all my fellow friends that will go to the war together with me...

Pure enjoyING Day(No books allowed)

First there are a list of people I wanna thank for contributing to my pleasant day:
1: UTAR cos today no class to attend...
2. Wai Koon, Gary, Ken and Vincent for accompanying me to enjoy...
3. Vincent's Kerani for taking us from our house to Sg. Wang and back again...
4. The rest.......(too many to list down)...
We went out quite late actually. We planned to start at 12, but due to some reasons, we can only start the trip at 1.00...Not very late...But not early either...
We reach 1/2 hours later and the GSC is our 1st stop...Not to see a movie but to book tickets for a movie later...(We have a bigger plan to be done 1st...)After a long discussion and a long process of elimination, we decided to watch Babylon A.D. at 10.15pm...
Later, we had our lunch at Gasoline...A "brunch" actually cos all of us havent had our breakfast. We ordered different types of Chicken chop, each with different sauce and cooking style...Then, we head on to execute our big plan...A plan we made up since our degree Year 1 Sem 1, but only today we managed to make it true...Very touching moment for all of us as we finally had the chance to go to sing K together!!!!
For 3 hours, we sing and sing non-stop. We sang about 20++ songs, mostly shouting and ya... we really didnt sing very well. Most of us either走音or音不准... And I admit we do not have the potential to be singer at all. Hahahahaha...But anyway we enjoy ourselves very much...Feel like the shouting help us to release all the stress and unhappiness we had all sem...Wow, I feel so high and refreshing. Our voice were sore after the 3 hours singing marathon but we are very very satisfied...First we plan to sing till 9pm, but after 6pm all of us basically lost our voice so we decide to stop...
However, it was still too early for our movie, so we decided to see another movie 1st. Ya...We saw 2 movies today(Thursday)...Since everyone except me are fans of horror movie, we went to watch 4bhia...I am really not a fan of horror movie...Honestly, every time I see a horror movie I was either been force by the others or been cheated into watching it...So, I think I cover my eyes 3/5 of the movie but I still thinks it is really scary...A must watch for horror movie fans according to my friends but if u dont like horror movie, u may want to skip it...The story plot is OK actually, the 3rd part is very twisted, but sorry...I really dont like this type of movie...U can call me chicken, but once again I insist here that I REALLY DONT LIKE HORROR MOVIES....
After a 20 minutes rest, we had our 2nd movie of the night: Babylon A.D....Another action packed movie which is based on a book called "Babylon Babies"... The story plot is consider good among the action movies (most probably due to the book) and OK visual effects... However, there are some part where they dont explain really well...Quite a shame actually because it is have a good theme and plot to develop. Besides that, the movie is short compared to others, just about 1 and 1/2 hours...Well, I give it 3 stars lah and u guys can have a look and tell me what u feels about it...
The movie ends at around 11.45 and we head back home. A very pleasant and enjoying day, especially when we can temporary forget about the final...It will be better without the horror movie. Hahahaha...Anyway, a fun day without need to think a lot. Spend quite a large sum today but it is OK lah cos this will be the last time we can enjoy before the end of the final exam...
Thanks u all for this wonderful day and remember to work hard for the upcoming final...Gampate everyone...

拉曼中秋夜

Tonight(21/8/2008) is our 拉曼中秋夜. We did it at Yan Shan apartment at Plaza Prima. Thanks for lending us the venue, Yan Shan...
Below is the activity we done tonight:
Tzu Ching会歌: Although many of the huo pan are new comers, but they can perform the 手语quite well...Most important is everyone seems to like it. A big clap for everyone...
Short speech: Thanks Richard for the short but compact speech. Include all the things that he supposed to say (exp: our objectives...).Got do homework wor...Hahaha... A big clap for him...
团康(Mini game):Sui Yao and De Jian really done a great job. Although they have only 15 minutes to prepare, they perform well and smooth... Everyone get involved and they create a good atmosphere for the whole night.Thanks for everyone participants too. You all make the whole house really ong... We need another big clap here...
Video clip and short sharing: A very interesting short video clip that talk about 3 easy ways to save our environment. All the steps are practicable by everyone. The steps include: Eat Less meat(turn to vegetarian), Drive Less (save energies)and Consume Less(Apply 3R:Recycle,Reuse and Reduce). Then, Rong Lai mama give a short talk about the environmental problem and how Uni students like us can apply the steps above in our life. Although at first she told us that she dont know what to say, but in the end she give a 10 minutes sharing without any hesitation. Very very 棒...And I really hope everyone can make use of what she told us...Gampate everyone in the road to save our one and only Mother Earth.A big clap for Rong Lai mama...
The making of DIY lantern:This is the segment that I was handling. After a brief intro, we divide everyone into 3 groups and start making our DIY lantern. Everyone really work hard to think of how to make a creative lantern from the stuff we collect during recycle. Not only the members, 学长学姐and师姑师伯 also participate in this activity. Everyone is really creative and enjoy the whole process. It was really touching to see everyone help each other to make the lantern. No matter who they are, they work like a family (Some cutting, some gluing, some drawing...)When everyone finished their work, they took photos with the lantern they make. I can see the faces of satisfaction, proud and happiness in everyone. Will upload the photos later... Here we need more big claps to everyone and their creative, beautiful lantern...
Eating and Blessing time: Then we have a simple supper. We serve fried rice and 2 types of kuih plus fu zhok yi mai. Everyone seems to like them because the food are really really super duper very very delicious. Thanks Rong Lai mama again for willing to spend so much time to prepare them for us. And we also need to thank Lei Yan for serving everyone and make sure everyone is given the chance to taste mama tasty food.(I also help a little, so thanks to me also...Hahaha...). Then Richard gave the heart shaped small postcard so that everyone can write down some blessing to their friends that is going to take our final in a few weeks time. Let's give a big clap to everyone take part in this segment...
Promoting the upcoming Tzu Ching camp:There will be a Tzu Ching camp from 30/9 to 2/10 in Melaka Jing Si hall. We from Rahman is planning to bring 45 students to attend the camp. So we need to do some promotion...Sui Yao is responsible for this segments. He really done a great job in introducing the camp. Hope that we can reach our target before the closing date on 31/8 Gampate everyone... Another big clap for Sui Yao amazing introduction...
Ren Jian Bu Ti(人间菩提): We listen to Master Zheng Yuan's 人间菩提 that talk about how two young kids that are really 精进.They are really very very精进 , even most of us dont have the determination to do the thing they done. They are vegetarian and didnt eat meat because they dont want to harm other creatures.It is true that a good habit must be teach since a kid is young because at that stage they are the most sincere. We really need to learn from them. A big big clap for those young children.
Love and Caring MTV(爱与关怀MTV): A MTV about praying for world peace and hope that there are no more wars and suffering among human beings. We sang the song together and it is really a touching moments. Big clap for everyone that really can feel the messages hiding in the song and MTV.
Photo-taking: Everyone taking part took photos together so that everyone can remember the day. We took many photos and I hope that everyone will not forget this wonderful night...Thanks everyone participating in the拉曼中秋夜.Hope that all of you can join us in our journey...感恩...
Before ending, I will like everyone to give a big clap to Chor Siong, our coordinators and Huey Shan, our reporter...
感动啊…看到今天来参加拉曼中秋夜的伙伴各个都带着满满的法喜(和肚子) 回家, 真的很有满足感…筹备活动一切都非常的仓促…从规划到办活动只有短短的一个星期… 真的要感恩伙伴们的用心, 学长学姐的帮助和师姑师伯的配合. 少了任何一环, 我们这次的中秋夜就不能如此成功了…
虽然过程中还会遇到一些挫折, 考验, 但因为大家满满的付出, 一切烦恼, 问题都能一一解决…

Two moods (2) - Happiness and 幸福ness

I found out today that one can actually have 2 completely different moods in a single day, at least it happen on me. After a gloomy, depressing, blue and any negative words you came across, I really looked forward to the gathering tonight. Everything still looks unpleasant on my way to the gathering. An aunty accused me for taking her taxi. Please lah , Mak Cik. U tak angkat tangan, mana I tahu u nak taxi. Luckily the taxi driver was on my side, otherwise…
We gather at LRT station and went to the gathering place (Rong Lai mama’s house) with our Steven xue zhang. We were given a warm welcome by Rong Lai mama. When I mention warm, I really mean it. We were served with a warm and delicious dinner, prepare specially for us. OMG… I was so touched. Finally I can have something to eat after this long depressing day. Not to mention how tasty the food was…Have the feeling that I had went back my hometown and enjoy my family’s cooking. The mixed vegetables, 冬菇 and vegetarian drumsticks taste really really good. Really gan en Rong Lai mama for spending so much time to prepare all of these. A good meal can really boast up a person’s mood. After taking the dinner, I feel a lot better, no more depressing, very happy and幸福. Glad that finally I can overcome the dark side of my feelings and becoming the normal myself.
After a satisfying dinner, we start our meeting with a sharing session on the Tzu Ching camp that we attend recently. For more details, u can look up the post about this camp. Next, we discuss and talk about all the activities we done this semester. Recycling campaign, trip to Selayang, trip to Sg Buloh, home visits…All of these activities bring back all my memories for the past 3 months. Happiness, sadness, laughter, tears, satisfactions… Every chapters of the activities flow through my minds like a movie. I am glad that I take part in each of the activities and experience something that most of my friends never imagine of. All those memories…Wow…I am really proud to be what I am today, a Tzu Ching… Then we start to plan activities for next semester. UTAR students like me will not be part for most the semester as we have industrial training. TARC students will be 100% responsible on everything. Good luck for them and remember guys, if u all need help all u need to do is make a call and I will try my best to help out.
Finally, we discuss about the activity we are planning to organize on Thursday. I will write about it tomorrow after we done it.
See, how drastic my mood can change in a day. Maybe it is because of Tzu Ching. People say when we spend times with people with good mood; we will be like them too. I cant agree more. Well, life is not as bad as it seems to be…If we search and look clearly, there are many things in life where we can find happiness. All u need to do is find it patiently and carefully. In the end, u will find it and by that time my friend, life is no longer miserable.

Two moods (1) - The sad and depressing...

I found out today that one can actually have 2 completely different moods in a single day, at least it happen on me. Start the day quite gloomy cos I couldn’t wake up early to finish my report. So, I must bring it to Uni to finish it. Then, everything seems not right in Uni today. No mood, lower than expected test’s score, report…I really feel down and blue the whole evening. Then it started to rain heavily and I am trapped in Uni alone as all my friends had gone home earlier.
Being alone really can draw all kind of negative emotions together. While sitting alone in the cold, damp library, I really fell desperate. I can’t focus on my endocrinology notes and finish the Sudoku on the newspaper really really slow. Plus the rain was getting heavier and heavier and the library getting colder as the time goes by. I feel like I was being left alone in the rain. Lonely, shivering, scared and there was no one beside me. Then I keep thinking about something stupid…Obstructed by a simple question: What have I done in my Uni life so far. Then I start regretting, a thing that I seldom did. I regret not taking Public Relation during my 1st semester, not finishing my report earlier, cant gather enough courage to ask my friend to join Tzu Ching’s camp…
Things get worse when I decided to go home. First, the rain had no sign of stopping. Secondly, I missed the bus and I cant afford to wait for another one which will come in 45 minutes. So I decide just to take the cab home. Next, I find it impossible to cross the road to take the cab without getting wet. The cars all went nuts and speed through like a herd of tigers are chasing them behind. When I finally manage to cross the road, I was partial wet and I thought it was quite an accomplishment. Then, a car speeded through the pool of water in front of me and … Yes…I am “officially” wet and soaked…Shit…The drivers in KL are jac**ss. But it doesn’t end here. 2 more cars made this stupid, f***king actions and I just cant avoid it. Ahhhhh…It is just so sucks…I hate my life…

一瞬间 一刹那

一转眼 一瞬间...
你来了 你又走了...
一眨眼 一刹那...
爱来了 爱又走了...
不难过 不悲伤...
拥有过 就不遗憾...

去年夏天...
你和我...
誓言与约定...
站在海滩最高点...
眺望地平线...

海风轻轻吹过...
你的长发随风飘扬...
我仿佛看见了幸福的港弯...
你紧紧握住我的手...
你颤抖的双手...
让我感觉幸福其实不遥远...

我们的愛 在最美的瞬间开始...
在最美的刹那结束...
曾经拥有快乐的时光...
不管过了多少个瞬间都忘不了...
我們的愛 在最美的瞬间开花...
在最美的刹那枯萎...
我答应过你不哭泣...
把在一起的时光用永恒框住...
不管过了多少个刹那都不带走...

去年夏天...
我和你...
笑颜与眼泪...
在夕阳的映衬...
写下了句点...

海风轻轻吹过...
你脸上那一抹笑容...
我仿佛看见了爱情的永远...
你紧紧握住我的手...
我感受到你的颤抖...
和那一份不舍得的心...

我们的愛 在最美的瞬间开始...
在最美的刹那结束...
曾经拥有快乐的时光...
不管过了多少个瞬间都忘不了...
我們的愛 在最美的瞬间开花...
在最美的刹那枯萎...
我答应过你不哭泣...
把在一起的时光用永恒框住...
不管过了多少个刹那都不带走...

我们的愛 在最美的瞬间开始...
在最美的刹那结束...
曾经拥有快乐的时光...
不管过了多少个瞬间都忘不了...(就算你已不在 我都没法忘怀)
我們的愛 在最美的瞬间开花...
在最美的刹那枯萎...
我答应过你不哭泣...
把在一起的时光用永恒框住...(美好的回忆永远活在我心里)
不管过了多少个刹那都不带走...(到了最后的时刻也不想忘掉)

回到去年夏天那片海滩...
站在同一個地平线再來一次眺望...
海风依然轻轻的吹过...
你走了 誓言不见了 约定也不会再实现...
只是我的心还一直搁在那儿...
飘不走 也带不回了...

Proud...

Lee Chong Wei lost in the final...
A little sad and disappointed...
After getting through so many matches...
He fall at the final...
Anyway a silver medal is good...
But as many will say gold will be better...
But I do feel proud...
How many Malaysians manage to go all the way to the finals in the Olympics???
Chong Wei is the only 2 who managed to do it...
He did it...
He accomplished a mission that many Malaysians could only dream off...
So I really feel proud...
He lost...
But I am sure he gain respect from many...
He is still one of the best player in the world...
Hope to see him in action in the 2012 London Olympics...

Short and Simple

Went to cut my hair with Wai Koon today...
Cos my hair is damn long and really make me uncomfortable...
So I decided to spend RM15 to get a hair cut...
No expecting any new hair style...
My friends know my style is always short and simple...
Cos they know the things I hate to do is comb my hair...
Really dont care much on my hair style...
Friends keep telling me to make some changes...
Be creativity...
Add in a little style...
Dont always keep the hair style of a secondary school student...
But I really prefer short and simple...
I cant save a lot of money...
Dont need to buy gel,wax,conditioner...
I can keep the money to eat something special...
And who say short and simple is ugly???
I think it fits me well...
Plus I dont need to spend hours daily...
Just to shampoo my hair...
I love my hair short and simple...
So I am happy to finally get rid of the bunch of hay from my head...
And return to my short and simple hair style...
(p/s:
I will be happier if the hairstylist had better skill...She nearly cut down my ear today...Swt...)

一直到今天

易桀齐一直是我个人很欣赏的一位歌手...
从当初的易齐到如今的易桀齐...
从恋恋不舍那首歌到后来的千里之外,一整片天空到今天的有你真好...
7年过去了...
他的歌依然那么简单,清新,却又能给我一种说不出的感动...
他不曾经大红大紫过,但就有一票像我这样的忠实歌迷,永远在后面默默支持他...
他就是一位"音乐流浪者",带着他写的歌走进每个人的心中...
这次想和大家分享他一整片天空专辑中其中一首我最爱的歌...

一直到今天

一晃眼03年
在过10来天就5年
说再见到今天
也在没见过面
可是我好想念
那些快乐的远远了
看不见说看不见
失去的不只一点点
又一年了
如梭岁月
一起答应一起答应还是生前的一个誓言
回不去了
那是到时间
那年求的签没有灵验
那年爱的人还在我心里面
一直到今天
现在我有她了
我们不在是少年了
那你呢
真的时间不等人
有时候很想念那些快乐的远远了
看不见说看不见失去的不只一点点
又一年了
如梭岁月
一起答应一起答应还是生前的一个誓言
回不去了
那是到时间
那年求的签没有灵验
那年爱的人还在我心里面
一直到今天
又一年了
如梭岁月
一起答应一起答应还是生前的一个誓言
回不去了
那是到时间
那年求的签没有灵验
那年爱的人还在我心里面
一直到今天...

一如既往

听了这首歌真的好感动...

已经很久没听到一首能让我那么感动的华语歌了...

来自易桀齐的一如既往...

一如既往:

電線竿那一支風箏

風吹日曬它終於剩下枝架

那年我們並肩站在同個窗口

看我看見遠方 愛情的模樣

如果有忘掉的力量

這個窗口就不會變成老地方

你選在一個最晴朗的一天出發

天空那麼亮 放大了憂傷

噢 我的愛 捨不得最美的時光

曾經擁有相同的信仰

總算帶來過歡笑

我們的愛 像風箏的線那麼長

我這樣濕了多久眼眶

有什麼不能原諒 不想原諒

因為我的愛 一如既往

如果有忘掉的力量

好把這窗口砌成記憶的磚牆

你選在一個最晴朗的一天出發

天空那麼亮 你別來無恙

噢 我的愛 捨不得最美的時光

曾經擁有相同的信仰

總算帶來過歡笑

我們的愛 像風箏的線那麼長

我這樣濕了多久眼眶有什麼不能原諒 不想原諒

因為我的愛 一如既往

噢 我的愛 捨不得最美的時光

曾經擁有相同的信仰

總算帶來過歡笑

我們的愛 像風箏的線那麼長

我這樣濕了多久眼眶有什麼不能原諒 不想原諒

因為我的愛 一如既往

回去那告別的地方

站在同一個窗口再來一次眺望

電線竿那一支風箏

不知飄到那裡了 不是那支風箏

是我的心一直卡在那兒

Tzu Ching Camp (Day 3)

The best is yet to come...
The part that I enjoy the most and touched me the most is at the 3rd day...
As usual, we start our day with Jing Si Chen Yu and the assembly of the volunteers program. Today, Master Zhen Yuan talk about 正命... She told us that we use must our time wisely, dont waste them on the activity that will only bring harm to us. We are lucky to be a human and have the chance to join Tzu Chi, so we must use our life to do things that can bring benefits to us and other people. We must try our best to help everyone that is in trouble so that they can lead a normal life. Really learn a lot of things but cant really expressed it...Hehehe...
After having breakfast, we listen to a talk form the Taiwan xue jie. She is really a powerful speaker. Using her humour and experience, she conducted a great talk and everyone enjoy it. The sound of laughter never stop from the start to the end. She shared with us how she conduct the activities when she was still a Tzu Ching and how she solve the problems she faced during that period. In my opinion, this is really a great meaningful talk because we also face the problems she mention. I hope through the talk, I can learn the best way to conduct the activities in my Uni and make our Tzu Ching the best in KL and Malaysia.Hahaha...
After that, we have another sharing session between the Tzu Ching members from the same Uni and colluage. We shared our feeling through this camp and Tzu Ching. We talk about how happy we are in Tzu Chi and how we really hope that more can join in our family. Then our xue jie started to cry. All of us try to calm her down.We promise that we will grow up and try to do the best.学姐,别担心,我们会尽力作好,快快长大,学会承担独立,不再让您担心...
During lunch time, there is also a part where I think is really touching. It is the part where all of the 工作人员is introduce up to the stage. There were many applause's and all of them thank them for organizing such a great camp. We clapped and clapped until our hand went red but we still keep clapping to express our thanks to all of them. Then all of us sang and perform the 谢谢您shou yu...
Then, here come the most touching part...圆缘...
First is the part where our friends perform 八正道... It was really gorgeous and very 庄严. 八正道 is about the 8 principles that the Master will like all of us to follow. All of the performance are so dedicated and they put on a great performance. Then, some of the 工作人员 and participants went up to share their feelings. This is where some people start to cry. Everyone have their own different stories on how they enter Tzu Chi, how the feel the changes in their life, how they feel about this camp and many many more. The another part that touched me the most is when the 很幸福 is performed. Tears were rolling in my eyes when I saw the performance and listen to the song. It was so so so so touching and at that moment I really feel that I am very very 幸福to join in this big family because it give me the feel of home when I am homesick, when I am lonely and when I need some shelter from this world. We end our camp by singing this song-很幸福 together in big circle. When all of us hold hand and sing this song, many of the members started to cry and hug each other. It is really a very very 幸福 and 温馨moment.
So this how it end. Really looking foward to the camp in September...
伙伴们,请记住,在慈济路上有我们的陪伴,你永不孤独...

Tzu Ching Camp (Day 2)

We woke up at 4.45 am. This is the earliest time I ever woke up in my entire life. Wow...
After brushing my teeth and wash my face, we went to the hall for the 1st activity today-Jing Si Chen Yu. All of us sit down quietly in the hall and listen to Master Zhen Yuan talking about life. It was a very meaningful talk and although the Master is far away in Taiwan we feel that she was just right beside us, teaching us the way to be a better person. Then, we listen to the assembly of the volunteers of Tzu Chi, live from Taiwan. In the assembly, we can listen to different stories form the volunteers on what have they done lately. It is a very interesting experience as none of us can really see this program live before. Then, we have the breakfast.
After filling up our stomach, we start our next activity. This time we are very lucky because the organizer had invited 4 very "heavyweight" shi gu and shi jie to give us a talk.
The 1st 2 talks are about how the Tzu Ching activity is done in Taiwan's university. However it think it is not so practical in Malaysia because most of our activities here are done underground because the Uni wont let us start up a club. A sad situation but this will not stop us...We will try our best to make sure more of our friends know abt us and willing to join our activities...Hahahaha...
Next, we hear about the condition in Shi Chuan and Myanmar and how the Tzu Chi volunteer is helping them. We are really touched by the volunteers' spirit. They travel long distance and all the expenses they must pay it themselves. But that will not stop them from helping the others and try to make the life better. If I had the chance, one day I will like to follow their foot steps and travel to places where people need help to offer them some aids.
Then, we listen about an activity called 晨钟起,熏法香. This activity encourage us to wake up early everyday to listen to Master Zhen Yuan's teaching and share with our friends what we learn. I was quite suprised that even the shi gu who didnt know how to use computer at the 1st place, will learn to use it just to listen to the Master's teaching. If shi gu can do it,why I cant. So I decided to start 晨钟起,熏法香 with my friends.
Before dinner, we have a conversation between all the 联络人from all the Uni that take parts in this camp. They are Uni from around KL,Malacca, Sabah and Sarawak. We discuss with the xue chang xue jie the problems we face and find ways to solve it. We also have the chance to learn many things from the experienced senior on how to conduct activity. In my opinion, the time for this activity is too short and there are still many things that we will like to discuss. I really hope we will have the opportunity to do so in the future.
After dinner, we have another discussion and sharing session. This time the session is done with our group members and our 队辅妈妈. We talked about our experience and our feeling through Tzu Chi. Our 队辅妈妈 is a very experience member and she told us many things that we can apply in the future either in Tzu Chi or in the society. Listening her experience is like going through a lecture form a great professor. Really wanna thanks her for her inspiring sharing.
This is all briefly how the day went on.

Tzu Ching Camp (Day 1)

As I mention in the previous post, I reached very late and the ice breaking ceremony had end up long ago. Once again, I missed this ceremony. Haiz...
After registering, I went to my sleeping place hoping to find any of my huo pan (friend) there. When I enter the room, it is pitch black and I just realize that it is already sleeping time (We usually sleep early during the Tzu Ching camp because we need to wake up early the next morning). Just as I want to lay down, my huo pan finally arrived after finish praticing the shou yu performance. The three all of us dont feel like sleeping yet so we decided to have a stroll outside. We slipped into the kitchen to have some Milo and biscuits and to talk to some of our others huo pan who are still busy preparing for the program tomorrow.
After a while, we went back to our room and start studying outside the corridor because all of us are going to have test. But we didnt have the chance to study longer because all of us feel that this will disturb those who were sleeping(because we are using the lamp and some of them cant sleep well). So we decided to sleep and rest our mind to prepare for the activities tomorrow.

TRANnotNASIONAL

I have class till quite late that day so I cant follow the official bus which leave at 4 pm.
So I bought my own bus tickets and have to board the bus all by myself at Pudu Raya. Honestly, I really dont know much about the bus station cos I had only went there once. As a result, it took me quite long to find the bus station in the crowded KL streets.
After asking like 5-6 people and running around like a mad man, I finally reached Pudu Raya with the whole body full of sweat. Then, here comes the problem. I dont know which bus I am taking and where should I wait. There were some many platform around and I have no idea where my bus is. So, I decided to ask the officer around.
However, it ends up to be a total nightmare. Those officers are not only rude, they are idiot,stupid,arrogant and sucks... When I ask them where should I take my bus he answer rudely and asked me to find it myself. Hello...If I know where is it, I wont need the help from a non-civilize man like you. Really feel like giving him a punch. All I ask is a simple question, he can just say he dont know and show me the place to look for the bus. Really f***king attitude
What can I do???Well, basically I was like a insane person grabbing anyone pass by and ask them.Luckily there is one person who is going to take the same bus with me and show me the direction. Otherwise...I will sure miss the bus.
I board on the bus at 7.55pm, 5 minutes before it leaves the station. But the nightmare doesnt end there. The bus driver drove the bus like a F1 driver, the only difference is that he is not Lewis Hamilton but just a 50++ old pak cik. Not only that, he is also very very impolite. For the whole journey he only stop once and totally ignored the request to stop at a petrol station by a woman who wants to go to the toilet. Shit...
I reached Malacca at around 10.30pm and the Tzu Chi bus is already there waiting for me. At the end, I can finally get away from this horrible nightmare once and for all. The next time, I rather ponteng my class and join my friend to take the official bus to the camp. No more Transnasional Bus for me. Never again.
Before I end up here, I will want to dedicate this song to TRANnotNASIONAL a.k.a Transnasional Bus company. It is changed form a song form Eagles-Business as Usual and I called it Rude as Usual:
Look at the station, look at the buses
Look at all the rude people swaying around
They're running time, leaving grace
Still they worship and embrace the f***king attitude
When unsureness is everywhere in the industry
I thought that I would be safe and happy taking a bus
From a trusted bus company
But it's as rude as usual
Day after day
Rudeness as usual
Just grinding away
You are just asking a simple question
You try to be polite
But they are as rude as usual
Turns their mouth into swords and slash your innonence
Monuments to arrogance reach for the sky
All their politness had been buried deep in the ground
You maybe got the biggest bus station that money can buy
Dominating the industry and have the largest amount of buses
Your motto is serving your costumers in the best manner and providing the best quality
But this is what you really means...
Rudeness as usual
How dirty you play
Rudeness as usual
Ask you a simple question
Yeah, and I will be treated as I am an Idiot and
Make me feel like a clown
Rudeness as usual
Is breakin' me down
Boy, I really wanted to show you my fist and crush you
Yeah, if there are no heavy bags on my hand
And it's a soul suckin', soul suckin', soul suckin', soul suckin'
Soul suckin', soul suckin' bus company
Rudeness as usual
Day after day
Rudeness as usual
Feel like walking away
You are like a barrel of monkeys
Or band of Barbarians
Staying near to you will only make me one of your kind...

Tzu Ching Camp

Just came back from Tzu Ching camp in Malacca yesterday night.
Tired but I really feel satisfied. It was really a very great camp and I dont have any regret in joining this 3 days 2 nights camp.
It was quite "so so" at the beginning but it become more and more interesting through the end. Really enjoy it very very much. The 3 days 2 nights journey are full with tears and laughter. I learn more about Tzu Ching and is become clearer with my responsibility as a committee member (联络人).
It will write down everything in a few posts because I know it will be quite long and someone dont like to see to long post...
*Ahem...The one I mention should know...

北京奥运会

08-08-08是北京奥运会开幕的重大日子,也是全球华人奥运圆梦之日. 远在马来西亚华人的我也感到无限的光荣,骄傲.万众期待的奥运会终于来到中国了.

从2001年的申奥成功后,自己一直期待着它的到来. 北京奥运会...中国人与所有海外华人总算可以抬起头来告诉全世界: 中国,能!!!毕竟举办奥运会不是每个国家都有能力的. 光看北京及中国政府所进行的筹备工作都已让我兴奋不已. 壮观的鸟巢, 焕然一新的北京,可爱的福娃...一切一切都让我有无限的骄傲. 看到大家同心协力的想把北京奥运会搞成有史以来最成功奥运会让我深深的体会到中国人刻苦耐劳,勤奋,认真,合心的精神.

在此想祝福这一次2008北京奥运会能顺顺利利的举行, 让身为华人的我们再次感到骄傲,也让外国人震撼在中国5千年传承下来的精神.

北京奥运会,加油!!!

(很想看开幕典礼,但需要参加生活营...有心的朋友,能帮我录下来吗???嘻嘻...)

想看北京奥运会最新消息,请到这个网站.http://en.beijing2008.cn/

Another Home Visit

Today we went to another home visit. But the "rombongan" today is a little different compared to the one on Saturday. Besides me, Sui Yao, Chor Siong, Huey Shan and Yan Yan xue jie also take part in this meaningful and happy 2 hours journey. The person we visit today is Siew Li, a blind friend and one of the Tzu Chi's gan en hu.
She lived alone in a flat near Seksyen 2. A very cheerful, open-minded and great person she is. Although she must face a lot of difficulties in her life, but she had the "never give up" spirit that will surprise everyone. She is blind but she can lead a normal life like most of us. She can cook herself, clean her house, take taxi to hospital and ...
During our visit, we talk about our life with her and she will share her life's experience with all of us. In our last visit, we help her to clean up her house. This time, we help her to fill up some for for the NKF(National Kidney Foundation). This is because Siew Li also have kidney problem and must undergo dialysis, so she need that form to ask help from NFK.
I must say this is the 1st time that I feel luckily to be a Biomedical Science Student.Hahahahaha... This is because I can understand the medical terms on the form and explain it to everyone. (Proud...Hahahahahaha...)
The NFK is a pain in the ass because there are so many infos to fill in. Besides the basic one such as name, IC, address, we must also fill in about what schools that Siew Li attend b4(I really cant get the connection between those 2 things)...Sweat...
However, it is an easy job cos Siew Li had provided us with all the info. After finishing that, we talk more and more. B4 leaving, Sui Yao open a mini concert where he sing a few songs. Then all of us join him and sing a few Tzu Chi song. We are having a great time together and everyone is so happy...
After visiting Siew Li, we yam char together at the nearby mamak stall. Not b4 long, we were join by a group of shi gu shi po which is also home visiting at nearby.
Having a great nite today. Get away for a while from my busy revising schedule and do some meaningful things is really relaxing. I cant agree more with what Chor Siong say in his msn :
Uni life should be like this-->trip,camp,sport,training,charity,outing... but not just focus on -->assignment,report,test....

Cheap...Cheap...Cheap...

I did a cheap thing yesterday...
I went to a cheap shop...
Selling cheap stuff...
To buy something cheap...
The things sold there are really cheap...
Most of the items are just around RM2-RM5...
Really really cheap...
A big mug is only RM2...
A pair of socks is also RM2...
A calculator is also RM2...
24 medium sized paper clips is just RM5...
Cheap till...
But I am happy to buy these cheap stuffs...
At least when it is broken or out of order...
I wont fell like I lost a lot...
Wow...
Cheap thinking...
Hahahaha...

5 Stories

Last Saturday, I went on an interesting journey with shi gu and shi po from Tzu Chi to 5 different places. Every place has its own unique story about a group of people who lead a far different life than all of us.

Story 1
First, we went to the house of an Indian family. Both the parents in this family have AIDS. The husband is a patient while the wife is the HIV virus carrier. But luckily both their children are free from this disease. They lead a very moderate life. The husband had stop working due to his worsen health condition, so now the wife is working to support her husband medical fees, their children education fee and life expenses.
Although their condition is bad, but it is glad to see that they haven’t give up hope. They tried their best to lead a normal life. The father sends his children to school and is still able to communicate well with outsiders like us. The mother works hard to support her beloved family. The children still can have the life like most of their companions despite having 2 sick parents.
The main problem for them is the high medical fees. The medication to control AIDS, vitamins and extra medicine to strengthen the patient’s immune system cost up to RM1000 per month. To help them, we Tzu Chi help them pay the medicine fees, electric and water bill.
But what touched me the most is their generous heart. They maybe live in a harsh life, but they still have the spirit to help others which are poorer than them. Shi gu told me that every month they will donate RM5 to Tzu Chi charity department to help others.

Story 2
Biomedical student like me had heard before the term dialysis many times in class. However I never had a chance to meet face to face with a dialysis patient until that day. The patient is a middle age man whose one of his kidney had damaged. Besides that, he has high blood pressure and I suspect high cholesterol level. He had undergone dialysis for 8 years now and used almost all of his money for it.
His family now is supported by his wife who works as a cleaner and cook during the weekend. The wife is around his age and start to feel tired if work for too long. Their daughter is just Form 3 and will be taking PMR end of this year. He must go for dialysis at a hospital in Jalan Ipoh 3 times per week and every time he must spend around RM110. Although the government will subsides him for about RM50, but he still have to pay the rest RM60. This means that in 1 month he must spend around RM720.
They are quite poor and live in their relatives’ house for the mean time. Luckily, they will get a house from Bandaran at the end of the year. But I feel pity for them. The man’s eyesight is not good and he can only slightly see due to the complication of his renal failure. Hopefully, their daughter will study hard and bring them better life in the future.

Story 3
This is the only Chinese family we visit that day. The man has problem with his vertebra and has difficulty moving around. His vertebra had been “pushing” his legs’ nerve causing them unable to stretch them. He can drive but only for a short distance because his legs will get fatigue easily. As a result, he cannot work and had to get financial helps from others.
He told us that he had this problem since he was a kid but it was not so serious that time. He went for acupuncture a few times and his condition had been better. As we know the acupuncture must be done continuously to get the best effects. However, because the lack of money the treatment must be stopped and he is now back to square one. With the help of Tzu Chi, now he is able to undergo the treatment once again free in our free clinic. His condition is getting better and he is very satisfied with his progress.
The lesson that I learn for him is that we must not give up easily. He maybe is an OKU (orang kurang upaya) but he is a very social able person. He had many friends and through his friends he is always finding ways to improve his life. He learns how to apply for financial help, treatment and many more. Really hope that his disability will be heal sooner and he will have a chance to lead a more normal life.

Story 4
This is another interesting story. The person we visit this time is a pondan or “Ah Kua” or transsexual??? What make me even surprise is that they live together in an AIDS settlement just a few blocks from my house now. Whenever I take the bus, I will pass by there.
As a mention above, the Malay pondan is an AIDS patient but I don’t know what is the cause he get this disease. He also needs to spend around RM1000 per month for medication, so Tzu Chi will support his medication every 3 month. The rest of the time he will either get help from the government or by his own self.
He is also quite pity because both of his parents had passed away and his siblings also unable to support him. So, he must stay in the AIDS settlement to make him qualify for government financial support. He is also quite a religious guy because everyday he will go for religion and jawi class.

Story 5
The last family we visit is also an Indian family where only of the member have kidney problem. She is an old woman in her 70s and must undergo dialysis due to the fact that her kidney can no longer function properly. Because of her old age, she also faces a lot of problem and difficulties during the dialysis.
Just a few months ago, the dialysis machine stops during the dialysis process because the pressure is not high enough and the tubes that in her veins cannot perform normally. As a result, she must undergo a small operation to adjust the tubes so that the problem will not occur in the future.
She lives with her daughter and her family. The family is not well being either. The son-in-law only made around RM1900 per month for working as a driver. The family still have 4 children to support and is having a though time. So it was a huge relief when someone introduces Tzu Chi to them. Their dialysis fees was reduce and their water and electric bill are also been paid by Tzu Chi. Although their life is still though, but they say it is much better compared to old times.
Besides that, they introduce Tzu Chi to another old lady live nearby which also need help.

Psych

Finally after waiting for 4 long months, one of my favourite drama series, PSYCH is back to action...


It is one of the best drama series ever...


Psych is an comedy-drama television series that stars James Roday as Shawn Spencer, the young crime consultant for the Santa Barbara, California Police Department (SBPD) whose "heightened observational skills" and impressive detective instincts allow him to convince people that he is *ahem...* a psychic. Then there is Dulé Hill who take the character as Shawn's best friend, straight man and reluctant partner Burton "Gus" Guster, as well as Corbin Bernsen as Shawn's captious father, Henry. This show is a combination of humor+action+mystery-solving and not suprisingly one of the most popular show in the US.
Below is the link to its offical website:
http://www.usanetwork.com/series/psych/

(Besides that, I am downloading the 1st episode...Cant wait to watch...)

From Gombak to Kelana Jaya

After 2++ years living in KL, I finally managed to take a "full" trip of the Kelana Jaya line LRT. A special and yet meaningless accomplishment...

It all start when the taxi driver insist to drive me to Melati Utama LRT station rather than Wangsa Maju LRT station. I have to agree because I was already late for my meeting and I really doubt that I will meet another taxi that is willing to sent me to the LRT station at the peak hour.

Then I took the LRT from the wrong platform and reached Gombak (Terminal Putra) rather than Wangsa Maju station. So that is how I got stuck in this 45 minutes journey across 20 stations.

Taking LRT during the peak hour is never a good idea,it might be the most idiot things to do...

It is packed like a sardin can, hot like hell and noisy like a market.

People rushed in like crazy in those major station without any manners, not to mention all the pushing and squezzing process.Typical Malaysian...

I really doubt that the air-cond is functioning cos I didnt feel any of the cold air. The LRT feels like a large moving SPA. Anyone who want to lose weight can consider peak hour LRT as an cheap option to shrug off the fats from your body.

I seldom regret on my decision but today I really think I have done something stupid. I should have just call my friend who is also attending the meeting to take me there...

Well, at least I managed to ride a "full trip" of LRT form Gombak to Kelana Jaya...Although it is also stupid but at the very least no many of us achieved it...

Right????

Lazy...

Am I lazy???
I know too lazy is bad...
It will make ur life dull...
Meaningless...
Completely destroy...
But all I want is to be lazy sometimes...
Sometimes laziness is good...
Help u to relax a little...
Slowing down ur pace...
Allowing u to see many things that u will miss if u r too fast ahead...
Help to improve my weak cardiac muscle...
Try to find my ownself in this fast-changing world...

Sometimes I imagine that I am like a cloud...
Light,easy,peaceful...
I dont have to move by myself...
The wind will blew me and take me to places...
All I need to do is relax...
I love to be lazy...
Dont blame me...
I am not that lazy everytime...
If u need me...
I will be ur man and help u whatever I can...

But...
Please, when there is nothing to do...
Allow me to be lazy...
Allow me to be a cloud...
Allow me to be drift by the wind...
And have some relaxing,peaceful moment...

The things I planned to do on this weekend

The things I planned to do on this weekend:

1. Wake up earlier than usual...Maybe ard 9.00???
2. Have breakfast like every normal people...
3. Clean my bedroom which is ald "uncleaned" for 1 week...
4. Go to Sg.Wang and change my MP3...
5. Buy bus tickets to Malacca...
6. Have a proper lunch...
7. Have a proper dinner...
8. Do my endocrine assignment...Although it sucks...
9. Do my biochem report...Or maybe just start by writing the intro???
10. Read for Moral Test next week
11. Sleep early...

But in the end...

1. I woke up early on Saturday (8.30a.m.) but on Sunday I start my day at 12.30p.m.
2. I ate Maggi Mee for breakfast on Saturday (Still consider the average breakfast everyone will eat, I think) but on Sunday I didnt have my breakfast (cos breakfast should be eaten btw 6 a.m. to 11.59 a.m. Everything after that period is consider branch...)
3. Juz unwillingly clean my bedroom after dinner on Sunday(cos the dust is making me sneeze like an elephant)
4. Lazy...Too far...No money...No mood...Nobody go with me...Lost the reciept...
5. I went to the ticket counter.I really did...But it was closed on weekend.So...Not My Faultlah...
6. Have a great lunch on Saturday.But didnt have lunch on Sunday cos lazy to go down and no one want to "ta pao" for me.So I must wait until dinner before I have my 1st meal...
7. Well I have dinner on time on both day and ate a lot. Most probably to cover up what I missed during breakfast and lunch...
8. Just finish it not so long ago. I think this is the assig that I put the least effort into doing it.But at least i did not merely copy and paste. I read it before I paste it...Honest...
9. Hehehe...Just write my objectives,material,method and result. Calculation and discussion will have to wait a little longer...
10. Aiya,still got time lah...Read it on Monday (if I have the mood...)
11. Hope to achieve it 2nite but it seems impossible if someone ask me out to yam char...

Overally, an average weekend. At least I completed 55% of the things I planned to do...Hope to perform better next weekend...

Sleeping Disorders

I really think that I have sleeping disorders...

I mean the sleeping quality just sucks lately...

I can either not sleep for the whole day or sleep for more than 12 hours a day...

Then I always fell sleepy during class...

Always thinking of taking naps and I DID take naps occasionally during class...(Sorry to all my lectures)

And the problem is I dont know why I cant sleep and why I sleep too much...

Maybe it is because of stress...

Or maybe because the place I stay now is always noisy...

Or maybe because I just dont have the mood to sleep... (If this is the reason, I am in deep trouble)

Thinking of taking sleeping pills, but I dont wanna get addicted...

Wanna try medication, but I know asking me to stay still for more than 10 minutes is like killing me...

See a doctor is maybe a good way, but I really dont wanna waste money on this...(plus I am offically broke now)

So what should I do...

If this continue, I will get older faster than I supposed to...

Maybe I will look like 40++ although I havent reached 20...

And those kids will start to call me "uncle"...

OMG...I dont want this to happen to me...

Somebody...Help!!!

AQUARIA

Went to Aquaria in KLCC with friends today...(Sorry to Dr. Wong, but I really think it is worth.But I promise the next time we will attend the class. Paiseh.Hehehe....)
Spending RM20 for the entrance fee was worthwhile after all. Saw many different kinds of aquatic animals, especially fishes.Overall a good spot to spend ur boring Wednesday afternoon. Much to see as I mention. Many types of fishes that I had never ever heard before and ya for the 1st time of my life saw the "tiny deadly baby pirhana". But it is hard 2 imagine that fishes this small size if capable to do a lot of damages when they are angry...Quite scary actually.
Then saw many ridiculously gigantic fish. Wow, I really think they can swallow me in a gulp... But it is sort of cute watching them swim around despite their large size.
Sharks...I am amazed everytime I see them. Deadly but damn cool, with their sharp jaws and superb swimming skill. And not to forget the giant sting ray, I wish I have a chance to ride on it.(Watched too much Pokemon, but the string ray really looks like Mantine). The turtle and tortoise are very adorable, especially the softshell turtle and the hornbil turtle.
I must agree that Aquaria is a place u must go at least once when u are in KL.Just to look at those marine animals swimming freely in the aquariums very similar to the original habitat is really enjoying. So next time anyone going there again, dont forget to tag me along...
Thanks to Gary for his full scale explanation...Learn a lot about fish today.
(p/s: remember to send me the photos ASAP)
**more explanation will be made when I get the photos cos a picture worths a thousands words!!!hehehe...

等待下一个日出

这一次我们都下定了决心
说好不再退缩,我们要一起向前走
黑暗中我们看不到任何出口
彷徨无助,我们要如何走出
爱情的荆棘让挣扎的我们伤痕累累
但我们不会认输
我们等待下一个日出
当朝阳扫出浓雾
我们会看到更美的景物(感到温暖的心)
我们等待下一个日出
面向旭日,告别黑暗
我们回看到幸福的路(握住幸福的果实)
当我们看到幸福的路,我要你不后悔曾经陪我走过...

Drifted Away

Gradually
I drift away...
I dont want to...
But I just been drifted away...

I feel like I am so alone...
Far away from your circle of life...
Been drift away by an unseen current...
I am standing in Pluto...
Gasping for air...
U are living on Earth...
Struggling with your own life...

I feel like I am so alone...
In a small island somehwere in the Pacific...
Looking for a new spot to lean over...
To find the long lost warmness that disappear since I was gone...
U are still at the same place...
Looking at the same person u know long ago...
Not aware that they are no longer what they are...
And u are no longer who you are...

I have been drifted away...
And I am not willing either...
But I know since that day when we make different decisions...
We will no longer be as close as usual...

I have been drifted away...
Far far away...
So far that I am afraid one day when I am back...
I am just a strange in your eyes...

I am drifted away...
But I will still remember the good times we have...
And the bad moment we share...

Gradually
I drift away...
I dont want to...
But I just been drifted away...

But I want all of you to know...
No matter how far we are apart...
I will never forget everything we had before...
I will always keep in my mind all the things we done before...
I will try myself to come back one day...
I know it will not be easy...
No one ever say it will be easy...
But I will give it my best shot...

I will swim through the fierce sea...
I will climb the highest mountain...
Just to be back...
Back from my drifting...
Back to all my friends...

Damn it...

Can I say no...

Absolutely no...

Never have a chance to say that...

I dont know why I will end up here...

Rather stay in a prison...

Even in the prison, I wont be so annoyed...

So many annoying people around me...

Engulf by these negative "chi"...

Totured by these endless faking smile...

This reminds me of hell...

Hell where sinful people are punished...

Eventually someone I hate will end up there...

Maybe only this thought can keep me alive...

One day the person will feel it...

Dogs will be unleashed by the devil from the deepest hell...

Eat the person and bring the person to hell...

Muahahahahaha....

Rain

Raining is good...

Farmers love rain, especially after a long drought...

Those who sell umbrella and rain coats love rain cos it will increase their sales...

I love rain too, sometimes...

When I am going to sleep...It makes me feel comfortable...

Under my blanket...Warm and well protected...

But sometimes I hate rain...

Fishermen hate rain, they cant go out to the sea during rain...

Ice-cream hawkers hate rain cos no one will buy their ice-cream during rain...

I hate rain when I am not at home...

I will be all wet and to make matter worse I must spend my times in cold cold lecture hall...

Without my blanket...

It is so cool as of I am in the center of a large ice cube...

I also hate rain when I am taking off to somewhere...

The bus and trains will be packed with all these wetty people...

Even I was dry when I first went into the bus or train...

I will be as wet and as uncomfortable as them as I walk out...

Journey of a Sorcerer

I am not a sorcerer...
I am just an ordinary guy ...
Sorcerer is usually a powerful magician typically a seventh son of a seventh son...
Well, I am a first son of a first son...
So what am I ??? Never heard anything special about a first son of a first son...
Maybe I am also a powerful wizard, only that I havent discover my power...
Who knows maybe I am more powerful than a sorcerer...
Sounds a lot like Harry Potter...Hahaha...
Anyway, Journey of a Sorcerer is an Instrumental was from Eagles...
A very beautiful arranging of music...
Not to mention that Eagles is a great band...Hahaha...