Bye 2014, Hi 2015

2014年是个奇妙的一年!
在 2014年 开启了人生新的一段旅程。总算实现了小时候想出国留学的梦想，来到了上海这个大都市。从一开始的不习惯，到现在逐渐适应这里的大小事。2014年总算把4 年的中医课修完，2015年就要开始下临床实习了，要开始适应面对病人，面对家属，面对很多和课本上不一样的病，学习如何做医病医人医心的医师了。
2014人际方面还是有不顺心的时候，还是有不圆融的时候，2015年希望自己可以当一个比今年更好的朋友，更好的伙伴，更好的同学，更好的倾听者。
2014年，还是慈青，很老的慈青。在上海真的很不一样，但也因为不一样，也学习了很多，做了那么久的慈青想不到还是很多第一次献给了上海慈青。第一次当学员长，第一次当课务长，第一次主讲读书会…2015年，还是要精进 精进 再精进，这样才能帮师公上人挑天下的米箩。
2014年的家，是羁绊，也是牵绊。一个人在遥远的国度，总会很想家。虽然有时候觉得爸妈还是爱唠叨，弟妹还是爱闹，但我想这就是家最让人放不下的地方吧。2015年要更爱家，要更勇敢把爱说出来。
期许大家能以善念破灾害，以真诚解恶缘，以感恩心送走2014，以恭敬心迎接2015。
还是那一句，祝福大家在2015年能【福慧安康】福田继续用心耕，智慧继续用心修，平平安安，健健康康。

临出国前之自我安慰

1.还好中国离马来西亚不远，从上海飞吉隆坡5跟小时，吉隆坡飞哥打巴鲁1个小时，从哥打巴鲁会家1个小时。7个小时        而已
2.这一次只是去差不多5个月，5个月过后就有2个月的寒假+新年假期（过后要呆10个月的就留到下一次再发愁吧）
3.至少现在老爸，老妈，老妹，老弟都有whatapps了，联络也很方便
4.这一次的暑假过的还不错，比较有力量再去上海拼5个月


但还是很不舍得啦...

3 more days

Before going to Shanghai for my new semester...
Anxiety kicks in again as I am counting down...
Really want to be at home longer...
It is too cozy and comfortable at home...
So little to worry and so much to enjoy...

Already looking forward to the next time I will be coming home...
January 2015 please come faster...

时光飞逝啊

1个月怎么过得那么快啊？
转眼间，又要出发到上海了。The beginning of Sem 8!!!
好想时间过得再慢一些啊！

珍惜吧，在家里的时光。

往诊

最近晚上都比较忙
往诊
到姑姑家帮她针灸
她说效果还不错
蛮开心的

Hope for the best

I clearly know the reason behind why I need to get permission if I want to go to KL
Mum and Dad want me to spend more time at home
But this is something different
It had been a plan that I hope to realize since the moment I step into IMU
Now my dear friends had made it a reality and I really hope to help them out
No matter how small my contribution will be

So...
I hope that my wish will be granted...
 (fingers crossed...)

父母是孩子的模，孩子是父母的印记。

父母是孩子的模，孩子是父母的印记。

父母的一举一动无时无刻地影响孩子，而孩子的一举一动无不是与 父母相处所结的果。

今天是中国的六.一儿童节，正好上海慈济也举办了第二堂的品格学堂，今天的主题是孝亲。

亲子关系就像任何一种关系一样是互动的；双方都 要付出，双方都要主动关心，主动沟通，主动给予。常常会听到孩子说父母不爱我，不关心我，不知道我想要的是什么，不知道我喜欢的是什么，而对父母有诸多要 求；那孩子真正了解父母吗？你是否知道你父母的生日是什么时候，喜欢吃什么，喜欢这么样式的衣服呢，你是否也 有好好花时间了解你的父母呢？父母也亦然。今天听到有一位父亲分享说“父母对孩子的爱是伟大的，孩子对父母的爱也是。孩子在你发脾气后，还能很单纯对你 笑；但你忙的没时间理睬他的时候，他也会在那里傻傻地等你，只为了给你一个拥抱”。

当然今天最感动的莫过于奉食仪式了，当小朋友一口一口地把蛋糕、苹果和 豆干喂父母时，很多父母都哭了。小朋友们也许不会明白为什么，也不知道他们这么一个小小的举动会荡起父母心中的感动。看着他们笑笑地问爸爸妈妈为何哭，还 会轻轻抚摸父母的脸庞时，真的是感动又感概，也许这种感觉要到我们都成了父母后才明白的吧。

絆

「絆」，
日語的「絆」Kizuna；是指人與人之間的情誼紐帶，情感牽絆的意思。
中文的「絆」指的是牽制，多半用在痛苦、沉重的地方，多少暗示了親情友情當中不自由的苦澀部份。
「絆」是「羈絆」，也是「牽絆」；如影隨形，是這一輩子甩不掉也不願意取捨的那一份牽掛。

我想家會是我一輩子的 「絆」。

 

全新的月份

全新的月份
全新的挑战
五月
但愿能顺利度过
所有大大小小的考验、难题
等待着六月终于可以回家的那一刻
我
想家了...

圣诞节

这里没有下雪，但窗外的雨滴也是浪漫的
这里没有冬天，但雨季的天气也是冷冷的
这里没有华丽的装饰，但至少有个遮风挡雨的屋檐
这里没有圣诞大餐，但有家人准备暖暖的三餐
这里没有圣诞树，但屋外的木瓜树开始结果了
这里没有圣诞老人，虽然老爸的肚腩越来越大
这里没有圣诞礼物，但能在这一天陪伴在家人的身边，
何尝不是上天赐给我们最好的礼物呢？

祝大家圣诞节快乐^^

家

家
就愛賴在家裡
一整天
無所事事
輕鬆
自在
餓了就吃
累了就睡
悶了就欺負老弟
簡單的幸福^^

Going back home tomorrow

Going back TM tomorrow!!!
Yeah!!!
10 days holiday!!!
Yipee!!!
Get to spend quality times with family!!!
Fantastic!!!
New car at home!!!
Wohoo!!!
New TV at home!!!
Woots!!!
Attending friend's wedding!!!
Wow!!!
Attending慈济activity in Terengganu!!!
Great!!!

But then...

2 test after the short break...
2 reports to hand in after the short break...
1 presentation after the short break...

Erm...
Need to use my time wisely...
To balance between relaxing time and studying time...
Hope I can achieve it...

Anyway...
holiday is still a holiday
and I am going to enjoy it to the max!!!

...

有时候，无奈也是成长一部分．．．

Sometimes, being helpless is part of growing up...

Budu

从小到大，我很爱吃budu...
最爱的组合是budu+小辣椒+酸柑
酸酸辣辣的，好吃极了。

吃budu
当然是要配ulam了
有的时候，单单budu+ulam就能让我饱食一顿了。

就那么简单，
却包含着无限的滋味，
还有我对这片土地的儿时记忆。

如今吃素后
就不再吃budu了
家里也好久好久不见budu得踪影了
只是家人买nasi kerabu是会加一点点。

今天
老爸心血来潮
弄了budu配ulam吃。

看见那熟悉的颜色，
味道那咸咸酸酸辣辣的香味，
虽然我没吃
但也回味无穷。

感慨的是，
家里懂得制作budu的老人们都已不再人世
以后要吃当然还可以在外面买
但味道肯定不一样了...

Hatyai...Wohoo...

It had been a long long time... I think around 10 years since I was last here...
The city changed quite a lot.
New malls,new streets,new stalls...
But some old places still exist...
The hotel we used to stay
The stall I bought my T shirt long ago
The place where I ate fancy ice cream
It is nice to be here again...
Although the non stop shopping is exhausted as usual...
The food here made it worthwhile...
Tomyam,ice cream,BBQ,fancy breakfast...
Haha...Hope our next trip will not be after another 10 years ...

Happy Papa's Day

Happy Papa's Day,老爸！！！

Thanks for everything you had teach me and give me for the past 23 years...
Appreciate them very very much...

Although I may not always be an obedient son...
Although I may not always be a good son...
Although I may disappoint you sometimes...

感恩你包容我的任性，我的固执，我的不听话，我的懒散

I will try my best to make you and mum proud...
I will study smarter and be a better son...


Hope to make you very proud of me one day ^^

Love you，老爸^^

调整心态

以前很抗拒、很厌恶...
总觉得很麻烦，很烦...
但也许自己开始慢慢成熟了，稍微会想了...
现在也能接受了，也开始释怀了...
既然改变不了，就要学会适应，能做的尽量做...
现在也不会烦了，做着做着也蛮欢喜的...
少了埋怨，多了宽容...
人也会开心些。

期许自己不要做个灯塔，
照亮别人，
却把黑暗留给身边最亲的人。
要像月亮，
轻轻柔柔地照亮每一个人，
温暖每一个人的心^^

Trips...

Trip 1:
This Friday...
Back to TM...
Take my passport...
To apply for visa...
For another trip...
Back to KL...
Saturday night...

Trip 2:
31st May...
Back to Kelantan...
My first 慈济 activity in Kelantan...
Playing a small small role in 无量义经音乐剧...
2 performance...
Excited to meet some friends...

Trip 3:
1st July...
Going to Shanghai...
For around 1 month...
A summer school program...
At my future Uni...
Shanghai University of Traditional Chinese Medicine...
Looking forward to it...
A little nervous...
Never been to oversea so long before...
Hope to get used to the life there and meet new friends...
Prepare myself for my 4th and 5th year...

A random day filled with random trip and random thought

Random...
The best word to describe the 1st day of May 2012...
A very random yam char session with the yam char gang till around 1 am...
Enjoy to max meeting with the gang...
Talk a lot of crappy stuff like we used to do...
Finally get to eat Roti Salad...
A very satisfying night...

Sleepless night for somewhat valid and stupid reason...
Woke up super early and only slept for 3 hours...
Disappointed with the performance but life still goes on (We MUST WIN the remaining two matches)...
Try to install Microsoft Office 2007 to my old old lappie...
As a result,wasted 3 hours downloading and dealing with the setup with no result...
So there will be no Microsoft Office for me...
which means need to do all my school work in Uni before coming home...

Very random invitation from aunty...
Going to have lunch in a fancy Japanese Restaurant...
So took my least favourite transport...
KTM to Kepong Sentral...
The train was surprisingly early today...
Reached quite early at Kepong Sentral...
But need to wait an hour before aunt and sis appear...
Luckily I randomly brought my Chinese Materia Medica notes...
Otherwise I will be bored to death...
The lunch was ok...
Not as good as I first thought...
But still it is nice to dine in a fancy place once in a while...
The food quantity is of course lesser...
and the quality...
well...
I can't judge...
I mean how can you made a great Tempura when all you need is deep fried those vegetables...

Anyway,aunt leave me at Pudu LRT after lunch...
Need to get a bag so planned a random trip on spot...
First stop: KLCC...
Not a very wise choice...
Everything is overpriced as usual...
There is a sales going on...
but really don't feel like spending more than RM100 on a bag...
So next stop: KL Sentral...
Went to a shop that I never step in before...
in my more than 100 visits to KL Sentral...
Found a nice and quite affordable bag...
Big enough to fill in all my junks...
And look nice on me too...
Then, third stop: Petaling Street...
Very random...
Haven't been there for so long...
Many things changed...
Not sure is it a good thing or not...
My favourite hang out spot is no longer there...
But luckily my 2nd favourite spot is still there...
Of course,I bought a few books...
6 books for RM40...

As a conclusion, a random day filled with random trip and random thought...
Feel kinda weird but at the same time it is quite enjoyable too...

The hardest thing to do...

Staying awake in boring class???
Memorize 300++ acu points and herbs???
Becoming a vegetarian???
Talk to authority figures???
Getting 4.0???



No...
Everything mention above can be achieved if I try really hard...



But...
There is something that even hard work can't achieve...
Talking to someone who don't want to talk...
Trying to offer a solution but no one wants to talk about the problem...
Changing some "tradition" that had been there for too many years...




It had not been the best years...
Many things went wrong and twisted...
I want to help...
But all of us need to change...
I can't fight this war alone...