Too scary

Went to an electronic outlet to get an new hand phone...
Bad decision...
The so call sales person kept on telling me to get another phone not from his company when I clearly stated that I want the one I want
He kept persuading  me and condemning his own company phone (Man,I felt so sorry for the company!!!What a bunch of jerks you hired)
I insisting that I am not changing my choice and he started to delaying the time of arrival
So I said I gave up and do not want the phone
I left as fast as I could
Horrible horrible experience...
No wonder most of the people here will rather go online to purchase one...
Those sales person are beyond jerks...

Kadang kadang sedih juga

Kenapa?
Kerana malam semakin panjang dan siang semakin pendek
Jam baru sahaja memasuki pukul 5 tetapi di luar langit sudah gelap gelita
Kadang kadang nak pergi makan pun rasa malas...
Haiz...

WHY!!!

The moment when u finally found the YouTube video that you need so badly to include in your sharing and you realized you can't download it...

Oh,censorship...You sucks...

敏感的问题

到了我这个岁数，总会有几个问题是痛处，是你不愿别人提起的
对我而言，问我为什么今年XX岁了，还没毕业就是痛处。问我以后有没有想要继续读硕士、博士，也是很敏感的。
屈指一算，大学读了8年！8年是一个什么概念啊！小学也不过念了5年，中学也一样，但大学念了8年，就等于还要多花父母的钱8年！尴尬的8年啊！朋友们都毕业了，工作了，结婚了，当爸妈了，买房了，买车了，自己还在悻悻然地躲在象牙塔里继续念书。而且念完了还只是本科毕业而已，虽然是有两个本科，但毕竟也只是本科啊，还是不如那些硕士博士啊。虽然选择再念中医我并没有后悔，但有时候被提起为何还没毕业时总会有愧疚，虽然不至于到无地自容，但也怪不好受的。
期望能顺利毕业吧，是时候报答父母了，毕竟年纪也真的不小了。
还和我一样出境的朋友，你也要加油啊！！！

Maybe one day

Met with Dr. Liow today. She was much happier. She had been in Switzerland for the past few months involving in a WHO project. Listening to her story and experience,I actually was envy a little. It was such a great experience and really hope one day I will be able to do the same.

两种人

世上有两种人：
一种是只有一张嘴，一直讲，一直骂，看到别人骂就跟着骂，别人如果不骂，就连带别人也一起骂，以为骂的越多就越厉害。
另一种人，不随波逐流，不人云亦云，安住当下，做自己的本分事。

请问您，要做哪一种人呢？

React react reaction...

Sometimes when you speak to me,you will notice that my face will be frozen and weird,like really really weird. I am neither smiling nor frowning, it's a mixture of both and maybe more expression. Just to make everything clear,it is not rude or ignorance to anything you said,it's just me trying to give a reaction.

Giving a reaction is something very delicate and I am not particularly good at.

When someone praise me,how should I react? Should I accept it with a big smile,it sounds cocky. Or should I just say thank you,maybe but then no one can continue the whole conversation. Should I say something good about that person in return or should I just shake the person's hand. I tried all of those and it is weird. End up the frozen+mixture of expression face... I don't know why,maybe because I don't think I deserved all the approval?

When someone criticize me,how should I react? Keep my head low and accept the criticism? Fight back? Listen attentively with a smile?Ignore? Nothing works too well either and I end up with the same old frozen+mixture of expression face...

It is awkward when you don't react correctly when dealing with both praise and criticism because a whole lot of conversation started that way. Hmmm...maybe this is why I tend to avoid talking to others or others tend to find it hard to start a conversation with me.

Anyhow,I am a friendly person in general so the next time you saw the frozen+mixture of expression face,don't freak out...please...

刮风的日子

这几天上海又开始吹大风了！！！今天天气都是20摄氏度以下，出门不披件寒衣的话很容易着凉了（可能是我这个很怕冷的人而言啦）。这种时候最舒服的莫过于冲个热水澡，然后快快穿好衣服，喝一杯热热的Milo，睡前再用热水泡一泡脚，盖着厚厚的棉被睡觉

Sometimes I like to be alone

My schedule is not very normal
I had my own cycle of life and it changes everyday
I can be cheerful and energetic for a moment and completely shut down on the next moment
I can be lazy but all of sudden I will be very determined
I can be emotional once in a while and then be very emphatic
Damn...Lapse of anxiety and depression...Do I have bipolar???

Anyway
Sometimes I just want to be leave alone
To handle my emotion and what not
I guess that makes me a weird person
And probably the reason why I am single...
Forever alone then...

安逸的...

忙完营队后，生活恢复平静
纵然明天有中内（二）的期中考，也好像没有很紧张
这样似乎有点不好吧
总觉得来这里上课有点太轻松了
一个星期上课4天，外加1天的见习
没有assignments，没有lab report，没有见习报告要赶
期中考也只有一科
安逸的日子
是过得很舒服，但也有点愧疚
平时虽然也有做温习，但感觉温习的力度不如之前在马来西亚大
总觉得空空洞洞的，有点不太踏实
也许已经习惯在马来西亚的大学生活吧
仅仅1个多月空闲的日子，接下来就是不间断的期中考,assignments，报告...
比较踏实吧

Hmmm...
忙惯了吧...

Approaching winter...

I see lesser and lesser the daylight
It is getting colder everyday
The temperature differences between day and night everyday is around 10 degree Celsius
I get hungry more and more easier
The number of shorts and mini skirts around me get lesser and lesser

Winter is approaching...
Hope that I am well prepare...
Don't want to fall sick and miss all the excitement!!!

十一营队 后记

营队在忙忙碌碌中，圆满落幕了。过程中考验真的很多，所以还是百感交集的。但最重要的还是那一份法喜吧。一时的感动也许不能长久，但那一份法喜会是一股源 源不绝的能量，让自己能一直走下去。“甘愿做，欢喜受”，一直很爱这一句静思语。一次次的承担，一次次的磨练，一次次的挫折，一次次的成功，才能让自己一 步步地成长。也许有人会觉得假期嘛，本来就应该到处玩乐，享受啊；或是呆在寝室里看书，休息，何苦花费那么多精力，时间去成就一个不会立刻看到成果的事 呢？也许就是那一份傻劲吧，总觉得当初有那么多人成就我，我现在也要用我那小小的力量成就别人，就那么简单。
虽然忙忙碌碌的，但能抽空一两分钟，坐在地板上，看着门外午后的阳光慵懒地照在环保站的石路上，享受那一刻的宁静、平和；或是顶着有点冷的秋阳，仰望那个长的有点巨大的丝瓜，惊叹着大自然的奇妙，也是一种美好啊。很容易满足的我啊...